oh well~ today dun feel so gd~
tired, moody... etc etc...
dunno y...
been thinking quite a number of things lately...
dunno y... but juz think~
even though not enuf slp~
but still my mind is full of things to work~
there's a few guy i confess to b4.. but in the end nth work out...
i've been thinking...
if they accepted..
than wher will i be now?
same as now?
worst than now?
beta than now?
idk~ been thinking to alot of diff kind of ans...
kinda stupid...
hahaha~
recently i saw rong mao in facebook~
tts y it make me think back of my memories in qwsc~
i think the 1st person i like during my time working in qw is HL~
tts abit funny... i dun think is like.. well.. shld be crushed!
haha~
ppl last time damn dao wan can~
lol! luckily... he dunno my blog... heheheh~ bitch more!
anyway~ i think i confess to him~ but like din work out..
cant remb also~ he seem to dislike me at tt point if time..
hmm~ cant really remb wat happen aft tt..
than~ i only remb i juz stop~
and suddenly.. all bcum gd frenz...
dunno since when n from wher..
LOL!

next shld be rongmao~ tt 1 i think i really like~
hahahahaha~ idk y..
too many common interest?
basketball, dota, o2jam, working at qw, stay at yishun, like supper...
lol! so funny.. coz of him i pierce my tongue~
n he is the 1 piercing for me... i still remb the date!
080307.. at tt point of time..
i told myself.. he is the guy~
i find myself damn dumb...
oh well~ if u guys noe...
tongue piercing is a piercing tt would nv close..
been 2 yrs plus going 3 yrs lo~
anyway i took out aft 4 months..
y... coz he gt gf le.. n tt gf.. somehow knew me..
n idk y...
haha~ actually i quite happy now.. coz he din accepted me.. =X
coz he is a JERK now.. so yup~
thk god! =D

3rd if i not wrong is gerald also name han xiang..
a guy~ i nv talk to him anymore~
and a guy i dun wish to remb and see~
exact details.. i cant really remb also~
haha~
he work opposite my shop~ name san street~
hmmM~ noe him than noe his fren call andrew~
he quite plump~ =X abt the same height as me also~
i also dunno y i like him~ no height no look...
>< but.. he is damn romantic~ lol!
he sing wif his guitar..
taught how to play too~
at tt point of time i think he is the sweetest guy on earth..
mayb no guy does it for me b4..

tts y i gt so big reaction~ lol~
anyway... tt time i noe he still loves his ex..
listening to his story.. make me love him more n more.. weird rite?
but.. it true.. taught me quite a few things..
thou everything i alr forgotten.... =X
i remb... when he when hongkong..
i told him i wan a spongebob back for present...
n he say he wan me make sushi for him...
oh well.. i did agree...
n when he reach HK..
he sms me.. tt sms..
make my whole day alive..
really.. omg... he went like 1 week..
so i receive like 1 sms per nite..
really make my whole day~ LOL! on my mum birthday..
also the day he coming back sg..
aft making, i share the sushi wif my sis~ t
hey say the taste is not bad!
damn long no make le...
when i free than make again for myself..hahahaha~
than i bring it to airport waiting for him to reach..
the 1st time he saw us.. he use the big spongebob doll to wave..
LOL! i am so touched by it..
idk y~ the spongebob look damn real..!
n it freaking big~ hahahaha~
we sat down at same place...
andrew n fang is there too~ so the 4 of us..
aft tt homesss~ really 1 of the happiest moment of my life...
hahaha~ oh.. n at tt time~
his gd fren andrew confessed to me.. aft i reject him..
he told me he knew i like gerald all along...
i am quite shock.. if it too obvious.. ><
than i told him everything...
oh well... i also dunno y...
than i ask him all gerald stuff abt gerald..
n he ans me!
if i were him i might juz ignore..~
oh well.. i really damn grateful to him~
when n y i ignore gerald...
hmm~
i guess is someday when gary the all wanna go street soccer...
but they dun wan him to go...
exact reason y i dun really noe...
so they told him the soccer thingy was cancel..
oh wel.. aft a few days..
he found out tt the lie to him~
n went missing the whole day~
i gt worried...
i call him alot of time..
all of us tried to call him..
but he juz reject all of our call~
i think i quite dumb...
thot wat will happen to him~
than suddenly i thot of andrew.. so i call him too~
he also rejected my call~
than i gt damn pissed off and upset at the same time..
thinking wat happen to them..
they juz disappear for weeks..
1 day andrew sms me..
telling me wat happen..
say they were dotaing at some lan shop~ tts y rejected my calls~
n he say gerald told him to reject my calls too~
fine... than i ask him to tel him~
from tt day onwards i wont call him anymore..
so i stop contacting him~
n he slam me big time on the floor.. zzz~
anyway till now... abt 2 yrs ba...
well~ aft him~ i myself change quite alot~
aft i started ignore him~
all things regarding him i throw or delete away~
like photos, hp number and all the presents he gave me..
including the spongebob.. i threw all away~

anyway not impt le..
i think the r the only guys tt rejected me...
n i confessed to them...
and they rejected me...
LOL!..
ever since than~ i nv confess to any other ppl~
scare of getting reject?
mayb~ tts natural~
well~ i dun even believe in love...
how to confess? hahhahaha~
anyway~
trashing my thoughts is really a gd thing... =D