oh well~ i'm back home....
today i reach home b4 12am~
kinda rare...><
back to my own emo world......
zzzz~ =((( haizz....
in my life... i think i spend my time most on waiting.....
rite now.. i'm waiting for his sms....
zzz tbh... the feeling sux...
thinking wat he is thinking rite now..
thinking if he was irritated my me...
haiz... thoughts like tt been running thru my mind for thousands n thousands of time... suddenly... the feeling all diff...
it no longer like last time...
idk y.... but i dun like this AT ALL..... ><
all shit things....&$(@*%$#@*^()+#
can any1 teach me how to stop everything from going? ><
i dun think i am gd at keeping my feelings inside me.... i
am afraid i would give things out...
n eveything will change..
which i dun even dare to imagine... =(
beside tt.... i'm more afraid of getting hurt.... zzzz
once bitten, twice shy, 3rd time..... dun even dare to think anymore... of all things..
of all ppl... but u.... T.T shitttttttttt~
feel like killing myself... ><

i think dun need kill myself...
guess me dying soon~ ><
duuno y... recently.. my brain n gastric is acting weirdly..
zzz~ ytd.. went 12th element find eunice they all.. than drink halfway...
my gastric start to pain...
zzz~ i thot coz i nv eat...
aft tt ate some chicken wings...
but still the pain still there.. ><
it juz subsides....
it coming on n off.. irritating...zzzzz~
n for the 1st time....
i had this GREAT HEADACHE aft drinking.. ffs...
wat a combo i have...
well... dying soon i guess....
so many ppl ask me go see doc..
but i dun wan.. ><
dun wan to noe if anything will happen to me...
let nature take it course..

mayb i shld juz chill down..
n refrain myself from thinking abt him.....
a little difficult...
coz.. he is running ard my mind..............................................
it hard... zzzz~
haiz... guess.... i end here ba.... blog other time...
kinda lazy to type le... nite all...



share some song wif all of u.. =D
Before I Fall In Love - Coco Lee

My heart, says we’ve got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
’Cause my heart’s been fooled before
Am I just seeing what to see
Or, is it true, could you really be
Something to have and hold
With my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who’ll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in
I’m at, the point of on relum
So afraid of getting bumed
But I want to take a change
Please, give me a reason to believe
Say, that you’re the one, that you’ll always be
It’s been so hard for me to give my heart away
But I would give my everything ,
just to here you say(you’re)
before I fall in love