well.. again... i'm at chota working...
today.. my mum is going for a op...
there's a lump in the womb..
so gettting it out today...
seriously.. my heart...
is in a mess......
idk dunno wat am i thinking...
she needa op..
i think i'm also the last 1 to noe...
coz beside me youngest doesn't i wont worry...
haiz...
if gt anything... she also let da jia er jie 1st to noe...
or if she need me.. than let me noe....
y...
y is this so...
i go everywher also become substitution...
spare tyer....
althought i dun really like my mum....
but i cant help but worry also...
morning 5am..
she woke me up.. talking to me...
idk.. if she is crying...
she sound like she is..
i think she quite afraid too....
but... nth i could do...
well.. mayb she don't even need me to worry..
since i'm so useless in her eyes...
i feel like crying.......
haiz.. who could i lean against....?
who can i talk to?
haiz.......
end here 1st ba~ laters~