saddist~~~

wah.. damn long nv blog liaoz..

haiz..


so many thing happen...

going crazy le neh...

he came back alr... but somehow the feeling he gave was very werid.. i dunno y larz.. he lyk change completely.. wasn't the same feeling anymore.. haiz.. i'm so sad.. he dun even wat was going on... all except blind could see tt i lyk u.. i dunno is u ignore it or wat..
i was so upset u noe.. OMG.. it was alr so obvious.. haiz.. wat can i do.. i alr swear not to fall for guys.. but but.. haiz... was really sad.. u dun seem to care for me anymore.. i;m always there waiting for u.. sms ya.. but ya reply sound so fruatrated.. which made me feel so angry n sad..
OMG.. y is this happenin.. i always thot ya diff from others.. but y muz u prove me WRONG.. really.. i read ya blog.. knowing abt ya ex n ya thing.. u willing to cry for her.. when i ask ya.. ' if 1 i die, will u cry for me..?' but ya juz scold me crazy.. haiz.. u noe.. i really damn jealous of her.. but no point larz.. all my laughter was all FAKE.. not a single laugh is REAl.. coz of u.. i wanna forget u.. no point hanging on u.. i will only ask crazy things to ppl i love.. if i 1 day.. i only ask ya normal thing.. no more weird weird stuffs.. mean i've alr give up on u..
n i'm alr on my way ther.. no worries.. i dun lyk to pester ppl for nth.. when tt dat arrive, u should b free.. mayb ya alr hoping for tt dat to come earlier.. i can assure u.. tt day is COMING SOON.. dun u ever regret..

my life is in a whole mess.. so fuck up.. i can wait till tt day tt i die.. it will b a relief to me.. i swear.. anyway.. no 1 will cry for me.. no 1 will b sad.. mayb even happy when i die..
i shall grant everyday wish...

from today onwards.. i wont sms or cal u.. unless impt things.. or ya sms or cal me.. i wanna stop all this misery.. it seem so hard.. u were so caring to me but nw u change.. u hack care me.. it u the 1 who promise whenever i'm bored u will acc me.. but u BREAK ya promise.. i hate it.. u left a hole in my heart which can nv ever b cover.. dun make me hate u.. PLZZZ.. i dun wanna tt to happen.. i dun wanna change anything nw..



i will always b ther for u.. hiding at a corner watching u secretly..