nobody wants me anymore...

long time din blog le...

today came.. coz me feeling was damn low...

last week.. i quarrel with my dad.. i cal him.. he dun wan to ans.. nvm..
later when he ans.. he always say he is bz.. will cal me back ltr.. BUT.. he din.. i waited for days.. than i cal him back.. he scold me.. i was fucking angry.. than i send him this msg..
' everytime i csl u, u dun wan to ans. than from today onward, i wont u again.. u only wan di di they all.. u dun wan me anymore.. wat for i care. '

than he started to cal me back.. this time round.. i wont listen.. than i send him another msg..

' dun bother to cal me.. i wont listen.. di di is enuf for u.. dun ever care abt me..'


tha he stop calling.. i was so sad.. tt i cry the whole day.. gerald n andrew notices is.. they keeping me wat happen.. but i'm relunctant to tell.. tel for wat.. no use... than when i go home.. gerald sms me ask me wat happen.. then i tel him.. he knew everything.. tt day was over..

for this whole week.. he din even bother to cal me.. nvm.. anyway tts wat i tel him.. but today.. my dad.. nope.. wrong.. he longer my dad.. he dun wan me alr.. i cant cal him tt.. i cant.. but he cal me today.. lyk wat i said b4.. i wont ans.. he keep calling... den he send mr this msg..

' hui dian hua, amy. wo yao ge ni dan shi u bu yao dian hua. sua wo DUI BU QI NI '

i reply.. " TAI CHI LE"

n same.. he keep calling.. he spoil my mood for the day.. i cry the whole day.. n nw.. to.. crying inside xspeed..

omg!! i told louann i wan to go home.. but i was here to blog...

nobody wan me.. even my mum.. she hated me alot.. always find fault wif me.. i dunno y.. since she hate me so much.. wat for give birth to me.. she gave birth to me n torture me emotionally.. wat for.. waste of ya energy..

she always ask me to go back to my 'dad' ther.. i cant.. he alr abandon me.. he dun wan me anymore.. wher can i go.. nowher.. this kind of feeling is worst can die.. i wanna die.. anyway.. they also wont feel sad.. think they will also celebrate my death.. coz no more burden..

guess so.. i always envy all those ppl with their mum n dad who can love them, care for them.. but i dun have.. although i have my dad n mum.. but i cant have the love they gave..

my mum only wan my sisters.. my dad only wan my younger brothers..
wateva they wan.. they sure gave it to them.. but me.. they will only cursed n swear.. tt all.. i muz earn myself..

my feelinf sux lyk hell.. dunno wat to do.. i wan a penknife.. can someone give me...



my life.. sux lyk hell.. a life with no love n care.. worst than death.. i rather die.. it will b a relief to me..