what a mess~

Today is WENDY 20th birthday~

happy birthday ger~ =D

school started like alr 3-4 weeks...

got 2 diff class to attend.. W35R n W15M..

nth special... cool classmates... not bad..

hard to bond thou~ seldom see them... ><

now still okok.. =D

still enjoying thou~ hehe...

last few weeks... everyweek club..

play, double o, sabai sabai..

all drink till collaspe.. KNS..

play dun have.. but the rest... too kua zhang man... zzzz~

Somehow, i juz realise...

my feelings to u... is diff....

i.... fall for my gd fren... zzzz tts..... the worst thing ever...

i hate this when it happen...

i'm trying so hard to control my feelings...

plz stop getting close wif me if u noe u will nv fall for me..

it a burden and tiring job for me..

y cant we know each other in other ways..

y muz we be gd frenz and this happen...

i dun understand...

i used to hate u so much..

dislike u sooo much..

but now..

i love u so much..

the harder i try to control...

the feeling getting more n more...

that's not suppose to be the way boy..

u noe u will not love me..

plz stay away from me..

i beg u..

seeing u treating me like..

is like tearing my heart into pieces...

like wat another gd fren say~

i am NOT strong like wat my appearance are..

my appearance are there to deceive ppl~

i am not tt strong and great...

so dun think i can take everything...

u r like killing me in another way...

haiz...

i really wanted to stop all this..

go back to the old days..

the love is damn tiring....

and my gd fren hit the bulls eye..

he guess all things rite..

i am in <3>

but i am scare..

scare that there r things to be sacrifies...

which r things also impt to me..

i dun wan all this anymore...

god save me!!!!!

haiz...

boy u belief?

loving u.. is even more tiring than hating u~